Over Whelming... Or is it?

so its been two and a half months since i've left and im doing great! i'm finding myself in new challenges that are healthy and also figuring what best for me... My mind has been all over the place yet i proceed with my routine.. also claiming my life is boring but when i sat back to really look at my life i have many opportunities that i need to decide on but also take my time on... there are days i want it all and days where i remind myself to take it one day at a time...

UP and DOWN my mind goes... i know i need to take a couple days off work to really figure out what it is i need to be doing and realizing i need to swing my golf clubs to put me in a visual perspective on what my focus really is. these winter days are distracting me yet i dream of those summer days to come i love golf there's no doubt about that because i had a dream i took 40 MINS!!!! on the first hole in a amateur tourny n in my dream i was rushing to catch up n thinking about getting DQ'd and then i woke up gasping for air lol!!! So with that dream i have realized that i am taking my time in life but feel rushed at the same time to make up my mind and keep up with fast pace of this world...

The days i have no expectations is the day i know it's going to be good but when i have those expectations i get in a bad mood today i woke up with an expectation of coming to work early but got delayed and i talked myself thru it and managed to calm myself, so now my day is going the way it goes...

I have also realized how people are trying to control how i "should" be doing things and i sit back and listening to what they have to say.. sometimes it's advice and sometimes and sometimes it's a compairson to others that have relapsed.. i have not YET gotten a sponcer but plan too "when i am ready" i still continue to go to meeting and meet with my counselor and for right now that is good enough for me...

my mind is all over the place with this one but i got out some of the stuff i needed and reauring myself on what it i need right now

Hope all is well with everyone =D

P.S. My days are happy still thru this all... which honestly is not negetive just over whelming

Lisamarie