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A really crappy situation.
So I made it home from Calgary and everything was going good. But I made the same mistakes as last time, no meetings, and didnt call anyone when I needed to. I used, my girl found out, and now she cant live with me anymore. So Im in Calgary now, trying to straighten myself out, I cant make it in Vancouver, which Ive proven time and time again, so maybe I can make it here. I really blew it this time, I had my oppurtunity to make good on all the shit Ive done in my past. I may very well not get another chance with my girl, she was the greatest thing to ever happen to me, and I cant blame her. I have no one to blame but myself. On top of that I am now going to miss much of my baby boys infant days, which kills me on the inside. he is such an amazing boy, perfect in every way, and I fucked it up. I miss the two of them immensly, and my immediate family as well, which I had to leave all behind. But all I can do now is try to get my act together, and I hope and pray that Calgary is the place where I can make it. Sorry to everyone who I have let down, including myself...
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Comment by Debra Richert on February 1, 2012 at 11:17pm -
Hi Mike. I haven't been on here for awhile and was touched by your update. I quite often think back to the Monday night meeting when you said you weren't sure if you had hit rock bottom yet.....maybe you have now. Like I commented, your rock bottom is what you want it to be. It's different for all of us and unfortunately some of us have to lose someone special to realize that we can't keep doing this. The important thing to know is that all is not lost. You have a chance to "get your act together"...we all do. It just depends how bad we want it. You've made the first step, and you can make it the rest of the way. I'll be praying for you and your family Mike.
Deb
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Comment by Jason Shulist on January 6, 2012 at 10:16am -
Mike, I wish you all the best in your continued journey, as difficult as it is at times. May you find the strength, inspiration and determination required to carry on evolving to become that individual you desire. It is truly yours to behold and achieve. The fact that it is difficult may be a blessing in disguise ... take heart, move forward and continue to strive to live in the 'now' as opposed to dwelling in the past or worrying about the future. Life is meant to be lived for this moment.
Onwards and Upwards Mike,
Jason
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Comment by Tricia H on January 5, 2012 at 11:28am -
NA BASIC TEXT - PDF File
I'd also recommend Chapter 7 of the Basic Text....
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Comment by Tricia H on January 5, 2012 at 9:25am
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Hey Mike... Get ur ass to a meeting. Pick up the phone and call the Ranch, I'm there this week
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